Last week as you know wasn’t my best. Between feeling anxious and upset with finances, last minute Christmas stuff, stress over jobs and issues with the kids, my ring down the disposal…just not my best week. However, My eyes were opened to something more valuable than what I lost.

When my engagement ring was destroyed in the garbage disposal I thought long and hard about it. And while I love it so much… It’s just a ring. I was sick over it because I felt so terrible knowing the expense of what I just destroyed but at the end of the day and the days that followed when I didn’t have a ring on my finger I realized that I didn’t need that to be fulfilled.

Sometimes God speaks to me in the most eye opening ways. He turns the worst situations into lessons for me to learn from and grow from.

He asked me…do you get fulfillment from a rock on your finger? Do you get fulfillment from this designer purse, do you get fulfillment from a bigger house, a nicer car, a bigger closet? A little embarrassed about my own materialistic ways I realized that the fulfillment is only temporary. It’s only in that moment that I feel fulfilled, its nothing that has  long lasting effects.

I do not think its a bad thing to have a preference of designers. I have always loved high end fashion and designers, and eventually I would love a larger house so our family can grow comfortably. I’d love a car with third row seating when the next baby comes but when those things become a means of feeling fulfilled, it’s bad.

This week I have worked to shift my mindset and my heart to really focus on what fulfillment is and where it comes from and I found that the long lasting fulfillment for me comes from a house of love, a friendship full of laughter, my crazy kids, family full of support, Gods grace and his mercy.