My life+my blog.

I’ve always been committed to my day dreams but my passion for blogging has taken a back seat as I navigate through my mess of this past year. Sharing anything that isn’t authentic isnt what I want to fill my content with, so i’ve chosen to fill it with nothing at all because who wants to write about real struggles. But that isn’t really authentic now is it.

I am still going to sensor what my blog consists of because some things in life are private but if I can share something in a mess to inspire someone else I will…and I hope my message touches someone.

This last year has been the biggest struggle emotionally in my marriage, when it should be the best time considering we found out I was pregnant in July. Anyone day dream of the perfect relationship? That stuff is not real. The hurdles you’ll face will derail that train real quick. Overcoming them though, thats what creates a solid relationship and I work to overcome them on the daily.

When my homelife is suffering, the rest of my life suffers. I felt overwhelmed with the pressures of work. I couldnt keep up with my fitness goals. I felt inadequate as a mom to both of my sweet and perfect kids. I felt like I couldnt please anyone but I was trying so hard. I wasn’t myself and I didn’t know who to tell because I felt like people didn’t understand.

It was only very recently that I decided to take my life back no matter what situation was unfolding. I get to define me, not my situation.

I have a zest for life and I don’t want to spend it upset or sad because of anyone or anything else. There will be sad days, but I wont get complacent in those sad days.

I have been a mother the last 11 years, and mothering is life. It’s truly the only job that matters and I am so excited to welcome baby #3 to our family. I have gotten so much enjoyment out of giving my kids so much love, and so many experiences. I dreamed of having a big family, and that dream hasn’t changed.

I love to be goofy and silly and spend my days with my friends. I love chatting about our lives and making big plans. I love surrounding myself in their chaos and letting our children run wild while we tune them out and attempt adult conversation.

I crave a passionate relationship. I crave a partnership that adds to my life and fills me up. I want to work at keeping it fresh, and I want to be seen as lover, not just wife or mother. (rhyme…unintended!)

The life I daydream of is the life im chasing. I can’t sit around waiting for dreams to fall into my lap. Take charge and everything will fall into place.